I am looking at these pictures today and I can’t begin to tell you how happy and confident I have become over the last years.
Well… This year mostly.
The reason for the smile in all these pictures is because of the great transformation I see in myself. I have become so comfortable in my own skin I puzzle myself. Before I continue I know I might receive some backlash from this post but I do believe someone out there can identify with my story.
I was so insecure because I have always been so skinny, so small. Too skinny actually, the doctor would call it underweight.
I am a size 6 and this is an improvement from a size 4. The jumpsuit I am wearing in this post is actually for a 13 year old.
I have got people asking me “Are you okay?” “Do you feel pain anywhere?”
I don’t blame them because it all came from a place of concern but mostly ignorance. Worst thing is that I couldn’t say anything about it because you sound like an ungrateful person ranting on and on about how skinny you are yet almost everyone is trying to loose weight.
Well like I said two posts ago, I will make a conscious effort to bring you in on my personal insecurities in the hope that first, someone out there can relate and start to appreciate their skinny selves.
It is okay to shop at the 13 year old section of the shops to find stuff that fits. And as unAfrican as it is to not be a skinny woman, we will try our best with the help of push-up bras and super jeans for the curves.
Secondly, to educate those who do not understand that weight gain is a struggle for some. Because our metabolisms are so high that we burn food faster than we can control. And we are not skinny because we do not eat.
Side bar : I probably eat larger quantities and more frequently that you all do. Also when you see those skinny girls working out at the gym please stop with the “What are you doing here questions”. My skinny self would like to stay healthy too that is why I am in the gym thank you very much.
Photography by Mwaniki Will
Makeup by Mia Muhoro
Denim Jumpsuit – Marks & Spencer
Hair by Leo Salon & Barber Garden City
Heels – Beverly Heels